Loneliness was distant for me back then, the thought of it didn't even crossed my mind, because i always denied it somehow or tried to find some other things to take my mind off the thought.

I don't know whether it's because of how i am or not. But the sure thing is, i now know how loneliness feels like. Even though i'm still surrounded by friends, albeit only for a few days now, i feel all alone. I don't have anyone to tell how my day was, how i aced a test, how i failed many. I don't have anyone to tell how i feel .

Back then, i looked and frowned upon people like me now. I thought that they are not grateful for having friends and family. But then i realize that they're all not going to fill the void some of us have.

Many days past like a blink. It's now suddenly 24th march of 2018. Days felt hollow, meaningless, repetitive.

People close to me thought i was weird because i don't have any love interest (or something like that) for a long time. It's not that i don't want to, it's just that i haven't find one. I'm not picky or something like that regarding that matter. But is it wrong if i wanted to find someone who understand and see me as i am?

Maybe i feel lonely because i don't have anyone to talk to, to whine to. I'm missing something that i think is very essential to a human being. Compassion.

The Writer

"Well what do you expect it's a drawing of a writer (apparently)"

Trip to Macao and Hong Kong

"the first one that got me"

10 years ago, when I was in 3rd grade of elementary school, me and my mother went to Hong Kong and Macao for her work trip. I never thought that I would go to any foreign country at the time because I knew that flight is costly and not everyone could afford traveling to another country. Luckily my mother’s workplace paid for our trip there. At first, we went to Jakarta’s International Airport, because there was no flight that goes to Hong Kong from Bandung at the time.  It was an exhilarating experience for a 7-year-old child to board a plane and go to another country with it. Although the flight was delayed for some reason, we were supposed to fly at 10 p.m., so with no other choice, we waited extensively, until finally, we board at 1 a.m. The flight took 5 hours, so we arrived in Macao at 6 a.m. The first thing we do after we got there is to check-in at the hotel we booked. After we had our breakfast, we went to several amazing places and landmarks Macao and Hong Kong offer. One of them is the statue of Bruce Lee in Hong Kong near the waterfront.

The view was spectacular, the city’s skyline is filled with skyscrapers. To know that Hong Kong used to be a small city owned by the British Colonial is shocking. We also went to famous markets in Hong Kong to buy gifts and memorabilia of our trip. After 5 days, we went back home to Jakarta. It was a captivating experience, I hope I could go to every country on this good green Earth to see everything this planet has while I live.

Delenimentum

"I think it means solace, but I might be wrong"